What I want and what I have

What I want and what I have are two different things.
I originally wanted to be a teacher. It doesnt work out that way.
Now I ended up being an engineer. Better pay off though. Better career. But it's not what I wanted. I did it because ..I honestly don't remember.

I'm the youngest in the family. That sucks. I prefer to be the eldest, second or maybe third.
I'm fair skinned. That sucks too.

I went to English school. This is one of the greatest regret. Actually this was what I wanted. Well, when I was in Kindergarten. Parents asked if I wanted to join my sister in school at St Margaret's or with brother at Chung Ching. I was 6 years old. Happen to be closer to my sister. So, I ended up this way. Now I wonder, And I dont know who to blame, why would my parents allow a 6 year old kid to make decisions? Geezzz

When it comes to human relationship, I dont know what sin I have commited.
It was quite disastrous. Generally they fall into three categories.

1.They don't like me. ( Fair enough, easy to settle)
2.They are in relationship. ( ......I'm such misery seeker)
3. They are les. ( Nah, just kidding,,,,wait,,maybe they are, they just dont want to reveal, but seriously, some lesbos are quite adorable,,,hahaaha,,,)


Me : Oh, Wise Monk, can you enlighten me on how to appreciate the world better and be happy on what I have?
Wise Monk:....................
Me :.......uh? Wise Monk,,,hello,,
Wise Monk:...........................
Me : Aghhh! I just want to be a SIMPLE person wanting SIMPLE needs! Are you listening!??! See this machete I brought from Vietnam??!!
Wise Monk: *Smiling* Listen, don't you think it's impossible to find 'simple' things in this 'complex' world?
Me :!!!!